As you can see, I’m in the middle of a pivot.
Last year, I took some time to lay low and figure out my next move. By the fall, I was guided to return to ksd. And over the past few months, felt a pull to pivot from being a designer-developer, with a focus on user experience, to a user experience designer-strategist-constultant-coach. Not too far off from what I’m doing now — I’ve always practiced and preached UX, and people have always come to me for guidance and advice — but a change nonetheless.
Between you and me, this pivot has been difficult. I’ve had clients who couldn’t wait to change. But me, not so much. I’ve identified with being a designer-developer for so long…
I feel like I’m abandoning a dear friend. One who’s gone to the wall for me. Someone who’s been through hell and back for me.
There’s also the usual fears: What if this pivot doesn’t work? What if I’m wrong? What if I’m right? Along with some logistical concerns: What kind of service model should I implement now? What happened to enjoying my summer?!
Oh yeah, did I mention the upheavals? There have been a few. Weird, WTF stuff. I’m told this is a common occurrence. As you change for the better, things that are no longer in alignment will break down around you. Your world will rearrange itself to become a better match to where you are now. But holy wow. It’s been a crazy few months. I nearly pulled the plug on this whole thing.
After some downtime, and some much needed journaling, I came to the conclusion that this is it. I gotta keep moving forward. I need to see this through.
So, fingers crossed for smooth sailing ahead. A martini or two, to take the edge off, wouldn’t hurt either.
To your digital success,